Faking It

This month is a bizarre one! I was having some nostalgia towards the beginning thinking over the last year and getting ready for the new one. I was preparing to be Theresa in Windfall  so I had my grief playlist going, and I've really started trying to write my full-length play which is full of relationship issues so this is just a crazy little playlist... America's Sweetheart by Elle King Never Let You Go by Saint Raymond Outlaws by Alessia Cara Catch My Breath by Kelly Clarkson Desperate Measures by Marianas Trench Dancing by Myself by Robyn Ugh! by The 1975 Heart Out by The 1975 Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World Over You by Miranda Lambert Colors by Amos Lee You Don't Own Me by Grace Possession by Sarah McLachlan The More You Ignore Me, The Closer I Get by Morrissey #1 Crush by Garbage Bathwater by No Doubt

Ugh. My poor neglected little blog... ...I think about you all the time... ...while I do other things... ...can I still confess things to you? Confession: I am super emotional in horribly inconvenient times these days. When I was in high school, we did a "most likely to..." slideshow of the graduating seniors; most likely to be on Broadway, most likely to be a pro soccer player, most likely to be a vet. Mine was "most likely to cry during this slideshow." I have a lot of feelings. But a few years ago, I was very unhappy and I cried all the time but I decided it wasn't helping me and I needed to stop. And I didn't cry for two years. Thankfully, that stubborn refusal to feel anything has ended, and I'm definitely more capable of feeling and letting myself express that in whatever manner I need to, but I can still hold it in if I want to. However... ...for those who aren't friends with me on Facebook or read my other blog , I'm in a sho