Faking It

This is the best time of year for music, I think. Maybe it's all the sunscreen in the air, but I think music sounds better in the summer. Anyway, this is what I've been listening to this month and the ones denoted like so* are in the running for my summer anthem. What do you think your favorite song of the summer will be? Shut Up and Dance by Walk the Moon* American Girl by Bonnie McKee* Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy Worth It by Fifth Harmony* Zzzzz by The Cab To Be Surprised by Sondre Lerche Lean On by Major Lazer & DJ Snake feat. MØ* King by Years&Years*** Afraid to Love by Philip George* Don't Cry Baby by Madeline Peyroux Fine from Ordinary Days When I Grow Up from Matilda And by *** I mean this is my summer anthem 2015. This is a tune. Happy Summer listening guys!! If you find any good stuff, send it my way!

There are things in this world everyone expects you to hate... but some of them you just love too much. These are a few of mine. Confession: I totally love destructive luxuries. Flirting with the wrong kind of boy. Sleeping with eyeliner on. It makes me feel alive. Confession: I do love being single. Lately I've been thinking about trying to change that, but for the most part, I'm good. I've got great friends who don't really care. I love being on my own, in fact, I prefer my own company to that of other people. I don't need someone to go to dinner, the movies, on vacation. Confession: I love wearing lots of makeup. You're supposed to like the natural look, but I love unnatural colors on my lips, my eyes, I love fake lashes... basically, I want to look like a drag queen if I'm going to go outside. Confession: I love boxed wine. My palette is not refined. And the reality is, I'm probably going to overdo it. I may as well spend $6. Confess...

I'm going to go a little topical on you guys this week. Not that I don't every week, but that's besides the point. So over the weekend I went on vacation! My first vacation in a stupid long time. I can't even remember how long, but it's been an unimaginably long time. For my friends birthday weeks we took them to Six Flags and then spent a day at the beach. The combination of those two days resulted in all my pasty pale friends becoming incredibly sunburned and me being asked, "what are you?" in reference to my ethnicity since I didn't get burned so badly. (I'm not sure what I am, but I have an olive tone to my skin, maybe that makes a difference. I also reapplied my sunscreen a few times.) It was a short trip, but it was so necessary. It came at the perfect time too and I'm so glad we had the chance to go. And we left California relaxed and happier than when we arrived, exhausted from walking everywhere, and covered in sand and two degree ...

I think I have an obsessive personality. I definitely do once I get a drink in me; if I hear a word, or meet a new person, that's all I'm going to talk about for the rest of the night which is super embarrassing. But I think drunk me is just a sloppy me. So I'm probably obsessive in real life too, which is an awful thought. But it's true. If I say something wrong during the day, I won't sleep thinking about that one phrase. Not how I could have fixed the situation, or what I could have said differently, but that one stupid phrase. It's awful in my head sometimes. And I realized in the last couple of days, that I have an obsession that's been occupying most of my waking thoughts. A few dreams too, but that's a post for another day... ...anyway! Confession: I've been obsessed with love since that stupid crush post I wrote. It's just been on my mind constantly. And that's pretty new for me. In the last couple of years I haven't da...

My family probably has lots of quirks and weird things they do and I'm not sure that this relates to everyone in the family, but I know me and my sister share this particular weirdness. Confession: Our favorite colors aren't really colors. When we were kids Erin's favorite color was plaid and I bet if she were honest she'd tell you it still is. When I was a kid I loved purple, it's still my favorite, pink is also the best, and glitter is the third. Glitter is the best color. Plaid's ok, but glitter wins it just does. What's your favorite color? What weird quirky thing do you and your family members do? Confess it to me late on this Tuesday afternoon.

Confession: I always dig through the bowl of mixed nuts and eat all the cashews. Like an animal! I like all the nut types, I think, probably. But I really love cashews and I can't help myself! I know they're for everybody, unlike that bowl of popcorn which is obviously just for me. I know it's weird to not eat a handful of mixed nuts, but a handful of cashews covered in peanut salt. I didn't even know the depths of my depravity until last year. I heard my Mom comment on the bowl of mixed nuts around Christmas. She said, "wow, they really didn't give us many cashews in this jar." That was because I ate them all. I felt nothing. Not guilt. Not shame. Not embarrassment. Not pride. Nothing. I'm an empty shell filled with pilfered cashews. Confession: I have been so busy lately, I feel like Confession Tuesday has really gone downhill. And I apologize. I'm in a show at Brelby (hopefully the blog I wrote about it is going to be up sometime toda...